Wednesday, June 19, 2013


I'm going to be turning 30 at the end of this year and I've made so many goals in my life but have accomplished so very few. It's strange that I take 30 to be some magical number that saddens me because of all the things I didn't do. I'm still too young to be full of regret and yet I feel as though I didn't get the most out of my twenties. I want to stay positive though. I've married a beautiful woman and had a pretty awesome little boy. I graduated college and have been blessed enough to work in my field; a job that I absolutley love (though I hate the pay--alas, that's the way it goes). I complain that I don't get to travel much yet I've lived in some pretty cool places and visited some others. Sure, I want to go to Europe and Japan but that's not important right now.

Right now, I'm working on my health. I'm working on being a better father and husband. I'm working to gain some love for life back into me. It's the overall transformation I'm shooting for. I want a lot of things, I'm a dreamer and I always have been. I want to go back to school and get my Masters. I still want to travel. I want to bake breads and be an awesome artisan baker. I want to learn a new language (or 2 or 3 or 10!). I want to be better at math (because it's the bane of so many's existence). I want to be financially independent or at least more stable. I want to read more, write more. I'd love to write a book. I want to write better poetry. I want to be more spiritual (though I'm not sure what that really means for me). I want to be better dressed. I want to go to more plays and musicals. This is just the start of the things I want. I'm tired of dreaming; I want to start living.



    Cull that list down to an 'immediate' list of maybe five items. Prioritize them. Then start working in that order. Leave the rest for later. You truly are SO young.


  2. I am 39, so I agree, turning 30 sounds very young to me too! Wanting to improve yourself is a great thing, though. What you already have (a family) is something that many people include on their list of dreams, so it is smart you are already grateful for that.

  3. I feel this exact way too. You're blessed enough to know what you want to do in your life, career wise at least. I'm still trying to figure that part out. Gwen is right, just prioritize and start doing! Why don't you go shopping this weekend and get some new clothes? If you want to bake bread, bake some bread! Maybe that's all you need right now, is something for the "Success" column in your life. Do something that gives you a boost, and everything else will fall into place. BUT, don't ever stop dreaming. If you can say you've achieved all your dreams, you're not reaching far enough.